I went back to LA Weight Loss today. I hadn't been there since January 2nd. My official weight was 153.8, which was down 2.4 pounds from my 1/2/08 weight. I was fully dressed in pants and a sweater, so really if I was naked it would be closer to 152. How's that for creative (weight) accounting.
I told the counselor I was ready to be done with dieting. I needed them to help me maintain. That 152 is what I want to call GOAL right now. So now I am on the 6 week stabilization plan, where we add foods back to my plan until we see how much I can eat without gaining weight.
This means, of course, I'm back to journaling my food and eating according to a plan. That's not exactly what I had in mind, but truthfully it's what I need.
Even though I have been eating whatever I want the past few weeks and have not gained. Even though I'm semi-successfully dealing with my emotional eating issues without going too overboard. Even though I'm feeling better emotionally (thank you God for antidepressants).
I still need a plan. Can you just hear the Eeyore tone in my voice? I do not want to keep writing food down, to track how many proteins and starches and fruits and dairies and fats I'm eating (I get to eat unlimited veggies the first week of stabilization--oh joy). I'm stamping my foot in protest like a pouty 3 year old.
But what else am I going to do? Do the "whatever" plan and end up fat again and grow out of my skinny clothes? NO THANK YOU, nuh uh, not me. It's just not going to happen.
So, for today, I can write my food down. I can eat according to my plan. I can maintain. For really reals, this year will be the Year of Maintenance.