Wednesday, February 20, 2008

153.2 - Drive Thru

I just drove through my gym's parking lot and didn't go in to workout. I was there, I was planning on a run, but when it came down to it, I just couldn't do it.

I've got lots of excuses. It's been a really long day, with Sophie at the office again (she's better, just had to have her fever free for 24 hours before she could go back to school), and I worked straight through all day with no break. It's only 20 degrees outside. I spent 45 minutes driving in the city after work--picking up Luke, dropping off FedEx, dropping off mail, picking up McD's for the kids. My hormones are in the basement with my usual monthly mid-cycle blahs.

Even with all this stacked against me, I was still determined to go, even though I didn't wanna. When I pulled into the parking lot, Luke said "No not there!" He's been pitching fits when we go to the gym after day care lately, and he wasn't in the mood to go either.

When I didn't find a parking space quickly, I just kept driving. My last remnants of energy and motivation left me like the air out of a slow leaking balloon. I didn't have enough reserves left to drag the kids in there kicking and screaming (well, one of them would have been screaming) and then change and then workout and then get them in their coats again and then back in the car and then at last home.

I'm am so exhausted with the Stuff of Life right now.

I know a workout would have energized me. I would have felt renewed and had happy hormones flowing through me. And if it was just me and just the run, I'd have parked the car and gone in. But the extra curricular activity that went along with it seemed insurmountable.

Life - 1, Laura - 0

I'll repeat one of my other favorite mantras now.... "This is only temporary."


sheila said...

Hang in there girlfriend, tomorrow is a new day.

Heather said...

we all have those days! and with your excellent track record with exercise, I know you will be back in that parking lot ASAP!

Jill said...

It sounds like you had a heckuva day sistah! Sometimes you just gotta say screw it. And like Sheila said, tomorrow is a new day!

Sally Parrott Ashbrook said...

Whew, that was a day. Perhaps you needed rest just as badly as anything else. :)

Lori said...

It's hard for me when I can't find a parking space so you're definitely allowed to have a day like that with Luke in the car and all of the craziness. I hope Sophie feels better soon. Tomorrow's just another day! :-)

Grumpy Chair said...

I know how hard it is when you have children who don't want to go somewhere. And in all reality (speaking as one mom to another) sometimes letting the kids win, is the easiest/logical/ best plan for that day.

Laura, I hope you get some spring like weather soon.

Some days things just to work out. No big deal.