Today is day 3 of carbing down, and this is scary to say but I kind of like it.
I love knowing that the scale will be lower tomorrow because I ate fewer carbs today. I am thoroughly looking forward to my carb up day tomorrow (pumpkin pie at lunch!), but am already disappointed in knowing that Friday my weight will go back up.
This is a dangerous little game, don't ya think?
I've never thought I could have an eating disorder. And don't get me wrong--I don't have an eating disorder now, other than, you know, I weigh myself every day and record everything I'm putting in my mouth. But that's called successful weight management, yes?
In all seriousness--I can totally see the attraction to controlling food intake and feeling more in control by eating a certain way. I *like* that empty feeling. I *like* eating clean food. I like how I feel, how I look, how my clothes are fitting looser when I'm not eating junk food.
I'm not in that "I won't eat so I have control" mind set. I'm in the "I won't eat junk food so I have control" mind set. Is there a difference?
I think so. I hope so.
Anyway, I'm not making myself throw up and I'm eating every 3-4 hours, so clearly I'm not bulimic or anorexic.
Just wondering out loud about eating mentality.....