I finally got a run in yesterday morning after the kids got on the bus. The weather was lovely. Cooler air and lower humidity makes such a difference in my speed and endurance. I alternated running and walking, and ran a total of 2 miles out of 3.
I still have a cough; it is wearing me out. The people I know who have had this have had a cough sometimes for over a month. Joy.
I'm doing well with food. Only had one evening with a misstep this week (last night, hence the uptick in weight; Thursday I was 173.8), and it was "only" 250 calories of chips ahoy cookies (Luke takes one in his lunch to school). I'm going to have to figure out how to Laura-proof them. Maybe the freezer?
The other night, after I'd received yet another letter from a creditor wanting money from Dad's estate--which doesn't exist since it was insolvent and there is no money to pay anyone--I could feel the stirrings of a binge. I kept busy, as is my usual evening routine now, folding laundry on the bed while Mark & the kids were in the family room. This time, though, I sat and thought about what I was feeling, and I let the tears come. It was a short cry, but it was a cry nonetheless. The binge feelings went away.
We are going to our Friday night friends' group from church tonight. We haven't been in months and months. It's the first real social event I've been to in a long time. We are taking our own meat to grill, and the host family is providing everything else. I am planning to take a salad and a piece of fruit with me, too, and stay away from everything else. I'm sure it will all be processed stuff I won't eat.
The kids had a great week at school. Luke loves Kindergarten. He has surprised me by how grown up he has become in the past 3 days. Treat kids like they can do more, and they do.
I have been practicing listening and not trying to solve everyone's problems when they talk. I did that with Sophie last night--listened, gave some feedback when it seemed appropriate, and didn't try to solve every question or problem she had. She talked a lot. I talked very little. She went to sleep smiling.
It's actually been a big weight off my shoulders to not feel responsible for solving everyone's issues. You know? I can listen, and that is enough.