TGIF! I am so happy it's Friday. We're supposed to have great weather this weekend, and hopefully we can get outside with the kids and do some fun stuff.
I ran another 4 miles yesterday, and my time was much better-- 44:19, which is pretty fast for me. I realize that 11 minute miles are not fast in the running world. I'm taking walk breaks to drink water and catch my breath about every mile or so, which means I'm running faster than 11 minute miles, but who knows how much faster. It really doesn't matter, but I still enjoy improving my time. The first time I ran 4 miles it took me 50 minutes!
Wendy commented on my last running post that the weather is "all mental. Disregard the weather and eventually it goes away." That totally explains how she is able to run the miles she does every week in South Florida's heat and humidity (and recently, the pouring rain). And it's great advice that I will have to repeat in my head over and over and over when it feels like I'm running through pea soup.
Dieting and maintaining (which I'm thinking about more and more, the closer I get to goal) are all mental too. How many times do those of us with food issues salve our mental hurts with food? When we are strong mentally, our bodies follow.
It takes a lot of energy to get mentally strong and do what's right for your body. This year has been about me finding that energy reserve and getting strong--putting myself as a high priority, making time for exercise, choosing healthy food at the grocery store and at restaurants, not letting work or kids be an excuse for failure.
I've had to give up a lot this year to gain the energy I needed to make this happen. I gave up antidepressants. I gave up donuts and ice cream as daily crutches to cope with my emotions and feelings of failure. I gave up cereal and milk, a food combination that's been my comfort since I was in my early teens. I gave up the martyrdom of motherhood-- no longer would I feel guilty about putting my kids in day care at the gym and leaving them for an hour, an investment in time that pays all of us back ten fold with my added energy and mental stability (at least, most days I'm stable).
I can't say I give 100% every day. I'm just not built that way--some days, I give 60% and I'm a failure. But the majority of my days have been about consistently being mentally prepared to stay on plan, to log my food, to exercise, and to avoid junk food at night. And all those days, built one on top of the other, have added up to what I am today.
Here's to making TODAY count!