Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Day 279 - 151.0 Pretty Woman

Remember towards the end of the movie when Richard Gere tells Julia Roberts he'll set her up with an apartment in New York and all the shopping her heart desires? And she replies "That's a really good offer for a girl like me."

That's how I've been feeling, after a couple of roller coaster weigh-in weeks--that the mid 150's are a really good place for a girl like me. You know, it's the lowest weight I've been in over a decade. And I look good. And when people ask if I'm at goal and I say (depending on the scale that day) that I have 7 or 8 or 9 pounds left to go, they act shocked and say "where's that going to come from?" And I pinch my muffin top and point to my saddle bags and laugh and reply, "Oh there's plenty of fat left, believe me."

On my low days, I feel like I should just be grateful for what I've achieved and not expect more. That apartment in New York looks pretty good.

But then, I get a 5 mile run in (like yesterday--yes!) and have a couple good food days, and the scale shows a lower number again. And then I think....I want the fairy tale. I want the Knight in Shining Armor with colors flying riding on his white horse. 145 suddenly seems possible, and even--dare I dream it--140 or 135 (my "ultimate" low weight that I wanted to weigh when I was 145 at age 23).

So today's a Julia Roberts day. I feel good, like I can really do this. And I'm worth it, and the effort is worth it. I am walking away from the consolation prize and going for the fairy tale.

On DH and my BIL-- BIL came through surgery with no problems, and gets to go home today or tomorrow. Should be back at work Monday. Thank you all for your well wishes.

And I didn't give DH credit yesterday like I should have--he does work out, when he's not injured. He's had a back injury for over a month and is still struggling for that to heal. He taught kick boxing at our gym for several years, and in his 30s was a runner and swimmer. He blew out a knee and had surgery, so running's out. And he might get back into swimming. For the past year he's been doing hot yoga 3-5 days a week, which I think has been excellent for him in many ways until he screwed up his back and had to stop. His biggest issue is eating--he's all or nothing, eating like a little piggy or fasting on the lemonade diet. He's got an appointment with his doctor in a couple weeks and is going to ask for an EKG to look at his heart, and he knows he's got to get serious before it gets serious.


CresceNet said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
ws said...

good news about BIL.

I know that "oh there's plenty of fat left, believe me" comment. In college the sorority hazing involved using a permanent marker to circle body fat - that was cruel, though I have no problem pointing out my own chub.

Marcy said...

Awesome post chica!! ;D ;D You've worked so hard to get this far and it's great that you're having your Julia moment ;D ;D

Tigerlilly said...

I love that movie...and sometimes wondered if that was not the reason for the high population of prostitutes in the city... I mean, if that is what happens, then maybe its worth it?...HA! Just way...

Anyway, you deserve the 'Happily Ever After'... whether that is 145 or 135 or, yes, even 155... as long as you are happy, that is where you should be!! So go for it girl.. go for you dream and be happy!!

Jess said...

Yes, even a hooker deserves the fairy tale so I think you do too.

P.O.M. said...

Good post. I feel the same way. I went from 168 to 134. And now I'm at 144 (being in love, etc).

But now that I know i can get to 134, I want it back. Everyone says "you look just fine as you are." But I want to be better than FINE. I want it all!

Non-Runner Nancy said...

Great post, Julia! Don't can do it. You do have to decide at some point what you can live with and maintain but I don't think you are quite there yet. You do look great but I know what you mean. You want to be happy in your skin. :D

Hubby sounds slightly injury prone. I wonder if there is something a little better for him that he could do and stay injury free? swimming maybe? I'm glad he takes the health and risk factors seriously. Take care of him.

Lori said...

Maybe some core exercises for Hubby?

151 is fine. If you want to get lower, you can do it. But if you're enjoying yourself now and reaping rewards, enjoy the roses along the way. Your husband has an all or nothing mentality (which I understand oh too well) but there's nothing wrong with maintaining for now during the holiday season. I'm so proud of your accomplishments, Laura. I remember back in the days of amazon and the time you weren't here that often so I'm so proud of your accomplishments. I remember you when...and I'm so glad to know you now! You're so awesome and you had always inspired me to do more. My goal was to run like you one day (until I had my accident).

Valerie said...

Great news about your brother-in-law!

I love this whole mindset, I truly do. You're so right - go for the fairy tale. You've come this far, you can go all the way. I think sometimes we need reminding of that. I will have to remember the movie quote, because that's an excellent reminder.

Ricki said...

I love the idea of a Julia Roberts Day (though have to admit I've never liked her much as an actress!). I believe there's no reason why you (or I!) couldn't achieve the 145, or 135, or whatever weight your body and mind feel best--and function best--at. And only you can decide what that is.

Feel great about where you are, I say--you've come this far--but don't discount the possibility of something even better.

Thanks for the lovely post.