Monday, November 05, 2012

The weekend & hormonal cravings (160.6)

Luke's party was a success.  The boys were great.  No drama. No one destroyed anything. He had a great time.

I was exhausted by the time it was all over.

Saturday was a difficult day, in no small part due to how tired I was. I only got about 6 hours sleep and then the morning was all work work work--feeding the boys & getting their stuff together to go home, and then cleaning the house after they'd gone.

But I was also in that "I'm starting my period soon" hormonal funk, which makes me want to eat everything in my path. I also was very melancholy and just wanted to crawl under the covers & stay there all day.

I didn't do either, thank God.  But it wasn't an easy day.

Yesterday was better.  We got the extra hour, which I spent sleeping. And I ran 4 miles in the afternoon with the girls.  It was the best run I've had all year.  I am faster & stronger & lighter.  I could have run another mile or two, easy. 

Today I'm tired and crampy.  No food cravings, so that's a good thing.  At least I don't have to deal with that.

My husband is having a procedure on his back today.  He has severe chronic back pain that has gotten extremely bad.  He's had 4 or 5 injections this year, and they work for a few weeks then the pain is back.  Pain meds aren't helping much.  The procedure they will do is a nerve block.  If it doesn't work, then he will likely have back surgery.  We don't know what that will involve, because it's just one step at a time.  But if it happens, it will be major and a big impact to our lives.  As it is now, his pain is a big impact to our lives.  He's depressed about the pain and not contributing like he wants to at home or at work.

I give him credit, though. He hasn't completely checked out & still does a lot with the kids and helps with the kitchen and laundry when he can. But he's not working out and isn't engaged at work enough.  He simply can't think about anything but the pain.  It's that bad. I have a hard time watching him go through this.

I'm thankful that my weight is at least still coming off.  Big smile on my fact this morning after reaching 160 (plus .6, but who cares?).

4 comments:

Jill said...

I can only dream of 160 at this point! Kudos girl!!

And super good job on not giving in to the food - you must be made of some tough stuff!!

So proud of you. :)

jen said...

Sorry to hear about your husband's pain -- no wonder you want to hide. Sounds very stressful.

Vickie said...

I understand back pain. And you describe it well. I would put a really bad migraine in the same category. Can't think of anything but getting away from the pain.

Has he worked with a physical therapist (sports medicine one, not a getting on and off the toilet one) at any point in his back process?

Laura N said...

He has done PT. In fact, he maxed out his PT visits for the year back in September. It has helped in the past. They focused on his breathing and strengthening his core. He's not doing any exercises now. I don't know why he stopped. He's horrible about paying attention to what works, what doesn't. It drives me crazy.

He originally injured his back doing hot yoga 6 or 7 years ago. The pain has changed places over the years. He had a great back/pain doctor who helped Mark tremendously, then the doc moved to Texas at the end of last year. The doc who took over the practice was a joke. It is very hard to get good medical care for back pain, apparently.

His doctor now is the best we can get in town. But the office is a zoo. They are soooo busy & he doesn't get the attention he needs.

He has degenerative disk disease (or disorder or whatever it is called). So I'm afraid the pain is going to get worse as he gets older. Very scary.

He was in bed Monday night, all day Tuesday, and all day today. He can't sit at all or it gets worse. We won't know for a few days if the pain is better b/c it's still so tender from the procedure.