Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving (159.2)

I had my therapy appointment today, and it was really great. Personal stuff I can't discuss here, but I can say that I always feel better & more focused & more positive after I talk with Julie.  I'm blessed to have her.

I'm ready for Thanksgiving.  Cooking cranberries tonight (thank you Vickie for the healthy recipe!) and peeling potatoes.  Tomorrow I will make 2 potato dishes--one with rich cheese and one vegan (guess which one I will eat? :)--and also will roast green beans and heat up the brown & serve rolls.  Family comes over at 4pm.

Mark's brother from Colorado is coming in late this afternoon, so I also have to get Luke's bed ready for him. Luke will sleep on the floor of our bedroom in a sleeping bag, which he'll love, bless his little 7 year old heart.

I'm hoping I can get through tomorrow and the weekend without stressing.  Right now I feel calm & cool.  The tables are set up, the food is bought, my plan is in place.  The plan is to get up early tomorrow and go for a run before it all starts.  And then run again on Friday morning with Kate & nephew Travis (from Colorado).

Speaking of running, I ran 3.5 miles yesterday.  My training plan calls for 30-45 minutes. I have gotten faster and can get 3 miles done in 36-37 minutes.  Since my weight hadn't moved from 160.6 for over 2 weeks, I decided to start doing 3.5 miles on my short runs.  Thankfully I saw a decline on the scale this morning.

OA tradition is to call and talk to (not call and leave a message, not text, but TALK TO) three OA members on Thanksgiving.  So that's also a priority tomorrow morning.

I hope you all have a blessed and peaceful day. I'm thankful for everyone of you who reads my blog.  Whether you comment or not, I know you're out there & I appreciate your positive thoughts & energy.


Vickie said...
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Vickie said...

My therapy appt was Wednesday morning also.

I see her every two weeks.

I have been going since 2007, with a break in 2009.

She and I both feel my most important work has been in the last year and a half.

My weight has been (pretty) consistent that whole time. When my last 20 lbs came off 2009, real opportunities to sort of 'fix the rest of it' presented itself. I went back to her at that time. I had NO idea that would be the outcome of loosing the last 20, but it was. Opportunity arose when I shed that last layer of protection/hiding.

And yes, honestly, I do think the weight had to (all) come off to really get down to the last of it (for me).

Last year and a half -

Being self reliant/communication/reality/learning for next time (which gets into that whole frustration with husbands thing). I am no longer thinking he has to be dead and the kids have to be grown/gone for me to live my real life. I figured out they really have nothing to do with it. I was using others as an excuse.

Choosing wisely - people and activities - to very carefully let back into my life. I guess this might be integration work.

Keeping firm boundaries where I need to for myself and my family. this is 100% about my mother, her husband, the holidays, my priorities.

spending my time wisely.

no self sabotage, yes moving forward so I am happy with myself and therefore pleasant in my daily life.

cleaning up my food even more. working on my water even more.
working on my sleep habits (yes, even more).

working on my medical stuff.

keeping my exercise consistent.

The weight loss/maintenance bloggers, that I observe who are REALLY making changes, all work with therapists.

Not just talking about dropping the visual sign of what is wrong by dropping the weight, but (yes) fixing what was really wrong in the first place.

It is my firm belief that has to happen to have real EVEN-ness and to keep the weight off and to be content.

Vickie said...

delete was me, fixed a (major) typo, rest is the same.

Vickie said...

And I think one has to be able to leave their ego firmly at the door, to let all of that happen. It is a true surrender process to move forward with one's life. And moving forward in our lives is the kindest thing we can do for our immediate families.

Vickie said...

did you survive yesterday?

more importantly, did the rebound of the AFTERS bite you in the butt?