Monday, July 06, 2009

It's Official

I'm back on a diet.

I haven't been able to get myself together enough to lose any weight. Without a bonafide plan, I'm all over the place and can't string together enough healthy meals (let alone days of success) in order to drop these extra pounds I've picked up over the last few months.

This morning I was 159.4, which frankly wasn't as bad as I'd expected. I drank a lot of tasty beverages over the 4th of July weekend. I ate a lot of red meat. I had ice cream a few times. I didn't run once.

159.4 was a gift.

And while I don't think I look hideous by any means, I have become uncomfortable with the extra fat. My capri's are tight. My belly roll is more roll-ey. I can't wear some of my work dresses because they are too tight.

So it's time.

I started version #2 of the Crack diet (Conquer the Fat Loss Code is the new book). And this will make it easier--Mark is doing it with me.

The plan is 8 weeks long. I think I can get 15 pounds off in 8 weeks. If not, I'll start it over until I do. 145 is the goal. I'd love to reach 140, but there's no reason to get all pie in the sky here. 146 was a skinny weight for me last year. 145 will be perfect. I won't have to buy any new clothes at 145. I'm not sure that's the case if I reach 140.

And I know I can run much faster at 145. That's another motivation, of course.

I'll be keeping it real here. You guys are my accountability people. Hold me accountable.

Oh, and tomorrow is my first psychiatrist appointment. I haven't taken wellbutrin for a week now. I've been on a down cycle since Thursday, so I'm not sure if that's a withdrawal effect or if it's my normal mid-cycle blahs (which is what it feels like). But I'm no longer going up & down on a daily basis, which is what was happening a month ago. I still feel broken, though. I hope the doctor can fix me.

Random Twilight chatter: Finished Eclipse yesterday afternoon & read Breaking Dawn until 1 a.m. No wonder people plow through these. I couldn't put them down. Yesterday I pretty much zoned out with Edward & Bella all day. I'm only 250ish pages in, and I wish I could finish it today. It will be this week, I'm sure. Too bad I've got to work and can't read for a living.


Jill said...

Hey sistah! I know what you mean - I seem to do so much better when I have a plan. If left to my own devices, I flounder around feeling all discombobulated (I love that word).

Do what you need to do and we will be here cheering you on!

Good luck with your psych appt!

debby said...

I enjoyed reading about what you were reading before on the crack diet, so I'll be interested to hear what you do this time.

Helen said...

Welcome back to Crack-land! :-) It does help to have your sweetie on it with you...even if he loses faster (grrr!). ;-)

My fave of the Twilight books is Breaking's non-stop good stuff! :-)

Mama said...

Good luck with the new crack plan. I know what you mean about not looking bad, but not liking how your clothes are fitting. I'm right there with you.

MCM mama

Heather said...

I hope that this works out for you! perhaps I should try it as well..Im not doing so well myself either. hang in there, and I know youll see results.

Jodie said...

Keep us updated on the Conquering. I hope it goes well. And good luck at the appointment.

And, oh, I love him. =-)

LG said...

Hey, there's nothing wrong with setting up a little discipline to get yourself back on track. I could well imagine after a wonderful week away in St. John and coming back to regular old world (as wonderful as it is), it would be hard.

Hang in there!

Vickie said...

I agree - vacation - back to back - with holiday weekend - tough combination - good that you have given yourself a wake up call.

Will be interested in your WRITING MORE so we can hear all about it!