Day 3 was brutal. I actually took Monday off from work. I felt like I
had a case of mild flu most of the day. By the afternoon I was better.
Yesterday was not as difficult. Last night I had tons of energy.
Today I'm awake at 5:30. So I am on an up trend now.
Cravings have been light and stemming more from routine than anything.
Like eating hot tamales from the candy dish when I get home from work
(dish is gone now). Having some chocolate after lunch and dinner.
Eating cookies before bed.
There are a lot of foods I am mourning. I miss chocolate the most.
I just keep repeating in my head what Karly writes--I can't eat sugar.
Ever. Sugar makes me crazy.
Not--sugar makes me fat. Crazy.
I don't want to be fat, but I can live as an overweight middle aged
wife and mom. And I don't hurt anyone but myself.
I can't live life crazy. Or angry. Or passed out from a binge. That
hurts the people I love most.
So it's going well. I am hopeful for more good stuff ahead. And
hopefully will have enough time and energy to start working out again