I am still doing very well with the OA program. No binges, 3 meals a day, doesn't seem that hard. My sponsor says I'm in the honeymoon phase. And she said to make that honeymoon phase last as long as possible. It doesn't have to end.
I met with her for lunch Monday. She is THE person I am meant to be with as a sponsor. We connect on many levels, and I respect her and how she lives her life. I obviously don't know her that well yet, but there is a connection and she is easy to talk to. Sometimes you talk to someone and there's just no connection, ya know? Not so with her.
My clothes continue to fit better, which is awesome.
I ran on Saturday for 55 minutes. I have stopped wearing my running (Garmin) watch and stopped caring about my pace or how many miles I've gone. I wear a regular watch and just pay attention to the time. I've done this the last few times I've gone for a run. It is making a huge difference for me mentally. I have always competed against myself, trying to run faster or farther each time, and not being satisfied if I fall short. No more of that. When I train for a race again, I'll wear it for my long training runs. But I could see myself ditching it for all the short ones, and just running for time.
I took a hot yoga class on Sunday. It was hard and not very peaceful--the instructor used her aerobics studio voice (loud) for a good deal of the class. Yoga studio is small, there were 6 people, and she didn't need to talk so loud; I think it's just her training from years of teaching in the big studio (she's a great instructor in all other classes I've taken from her). And for the last 5 minutes that are supposed to be peaceful, she talked about every 20 seconds. She'd shut up, and I'd think "ahhhh... now I can finally meditate" and she'd start up again with her "yoga speak." I left a little frustrated but was glad I got the workout in. I was sore for 2 days afterwards.
I was at the dentist for 2 hours today. Had crown work done on both sides. The lower half of my face & my entire tongue were numb for about 3 hours. So no lunch, but I didn't starve to death. I went home afterwards & did laundry, rather than going back to work, because I could not TALK! Thank goodness for texting. At least I could talk with my thumbs.
Tonight is Mark's night with the kids. I'm eating late lunch/early dinner at my desk at work. Hoping to take a pilates class at 5:30, then off to choir at 7. Feeling very blessed and at peace right now. Working on living each day and not worrying about tomorrow.
I wanted to share something with you that I saw on Facebook today. It's from a blog at recoverytradepublications.com. It speaks to so much of who I want to become. I think most of you will appreciate it, too.
12 symptoms of spiritual awakening
1) An increased tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
2) Frequent attacks of smiling.
3) Feelings of being connected with others and nature.
4) Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
5) A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based on past experience.
6) An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
7) A loss of ability to worry.
8) A loss of interest in conflict.
9) A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
10) A loss of interest in judging others.
11) A loss of interest in judging self.
12) Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything.