I am still struggling. We did increase meds from 100 to 150 mg. Too
early to know if that will help. So far it isn't.
I'm in a haze of ambivalence. I can function to keep up with my life
but have nothing left over. I can take a couple yoga classes a week
and even did 3 miles walk/run one day last week. I can do laundry all
day Saturday and take the kids where they need to go. I can shop, pay
bills, go to work.
The depression or whatever it is takes away the "extra spark" I
usually have. Sometimes, like today, things feel insurmountable and I
want to cry. I have a lot of intrusive thoughts. I'm easily angered
and frustrated. I often feel like giving up.
I know I'm not ok right now.
And I can't get the food right. I do okay during the day and then at
night I crash into sugar. I hate it. I can't stop myself.
Compared to many and from the outside I'm doing great. Inside, I can
barely stand it and just want the sadness and heavy feeling to go
I'm giving the increase in meds a few weeks. If I'm not better when we
get back from Colorado around July 11, I'm going back to the psych.
I'm slammed at work and at home.
I'm overwhelmed but I don't know what else to do right now. Other than
take it one day at a time and trust that it will get better.
Thank you for thinking of me, Vickie, and letting me know. I think
about you a lot--wondering how you DO all you do and stay stable and
eat well. And I'm amazed at you!