tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27032973.post355270548662524341..comments2023-10-17T03:21:37.194-05:00Comments on Life of L: Shining some light on what's going on with me (152.2)Laura Nhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07916626845812229646noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27032973.post-40841781882669316612013-07-29T17:24:16.015-05:002013-07-29T17:24:16.015-05:00"I am not in a pit of despair by any means. ..."I am not in a pit of despair by any means. Which is a good thing--my low is a higher low than it has been in the past. I am not flailing and hopeless. I am aware that I have changes to make, and I know what to do and where to get help. I will start doing it again."<br /><br /><br />That is what I found too, my low kept getting higher. My high kept getting higher. The distance between low and high closed. My range stays higher and swings very little. And when it wiggles, I notice immediately.Vickiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05452333714845476967noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27032973.post-77424257721480079962013-07-29T13:07:32.574-05:002013-07-29T13:07:32.574-05:00blogger won't let me edit my post (couldn'...blogger won't let me edit my post (couldn't compose one, either, had to send post via email). I wanted to expand what I wrote on being a starter not a finisher. <br /><br />I don't know if it's an addict thing or a perfectionist thing or what, but this start/don't finish deal has plagued me my whole life. I feel like that's what's going on with my OA steps. <br /><br />The first three steps are done by answering 30 questions. Usually people get through these in a few months or less. It's taken me 9 months and I'm still on #25. I pick them up in fits & starts. I started strong with them, then got distracted. I start again and get distracted. <br /><br />It's baggage I carry over my head, like many other unfinished projects, and I don't know why I do this. <br /><br />As soon as I can afford to pay for a therapist again--or in 2014 when (hopefully) new insurance will pay for it--I'm going back to see Julie on a regular basis. I know therapy is worth it, believe me, but frankly I don't have an extra $125 in my budget. I have cut everything back and there is just no wiggle room. If I could squeeze it in, I would. It's just not there right now.Laura Nhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07916626845812229646noreply@blogger.com